「破釜沉舟」這回事

「破釜沉舟」這回事

--   06/04/2016，天氣晴

選擇

三十歲時的離職如果叫做「任性」，那麼五十歲還可以選擇辭職，應該就叫做「奢侈」了吧？

沒錯，在職業生涯的選擇上，我好像一直這麼任性而奢侈地活著。選擇或離開一個個看似穩定的工作，從台灣的中學老師到紐西蘭公務員，件件都是。

第一次選擇從中學老師的工作辭職，是因為已經就讀交大研究所的男朋友，總是跟我分享物理的小故事，而觸動我這顆中文腦袋的好奇心，想一探科學背後的浪漫。因此，我向學校遞出辭呈，一心一意只為準備清華歷史研究所的考試。

這一次，我向公司遞辭呈的理由，仍舊是為了考試。不同的是，我是要去考雅思 (IELTS) 向教師工會證明我的英文能力，以便修讀紐西蘭中等教育學程。因為我下一個目標是進入紐西蘭的高中擔任中文教師。

第一次的辭職並沒有受到太多祝福，可能是對大多數長官跟同事而言，「破釜沉舟」這回事，應該只會發生在孫子兵法裡面吧。這一次的離職，雖然稱不上核爆但亦不遠矣。不同的是在塵埃落定之後，祝福的多。

我三月八號一早遞出辭呈:

Hi XXXX,

This is a hard decision. However, I wish you could forward my resignation to XXXX in order to obtain her approval.

As per my oral report to you last afternoon, I need time to prepare IELTS test to achieve the requirement from Teachers’ Council so that I could have opportunity to study Teaching diploma.

I had a very successful interview last December in University. My interview panels from Teacher’s Education centre really want me to join the preservice teacher’s programme.  Unfortunately, rule still has to be followed.  Until I gained the required English test results, the gate is not allowed to be opened for me.

I made a good plan since start of the year about how to prepare the Test. However, I have not had time to do it yet. Over the weekend, Sam, my husband and I had a long discussion about my career and the opportunity. We both agree it would be too late after I complete my contract with EQC.

Therefore, I wish to submit a formal resignation from this job.

This will give other people who is looking for a good employee an awesome opportunity while it might bring me to achieve my dream.  

Thank you for you and Candi’s kind support and all the generous treats.

I really love your leadership and our team spirit.

I wish everything goes very to the Centre and everyone.

領導快到中午才把我的辭呈轉給出差在外的中心經理，還提醒經理我的最後一天是「愚人節」:

Morning XXXX

Please find below, Marleen’s resignation email.  Her last day would be the 1^st April 2016.

Thank you

XXXX

經理三月九號給我回的准辭信:

Hi Marleen,

This is to confirm the acceptance of your resignation which I received on Tuesday 8 March 2016.  As requested your last working day with EQC will be 1 April 2016.  I would like to thank you for all your hard work and commitment during your time with EQC, it has been a pleasure working with you and I wish you the very best of luck for the future.  With the dedication you show towards everything that you do, I am sure that you will be successful in both your test and meeting your career goals.

Thanks

XXXX

三月十號無意間在公司的個人寄物箱轉角，遇見剛出差回來的中心經理。她先用一雙大眼睛瞪瞪我，接著說：「I couldn’t believe you are leaving us… I was in Wellington the day when I received your resignation. I phoned xxxx 5 times want to know whether this is a joke or not…」於是，我把辭職的理由又說了一遍。沒想到她的回答是：「Go for it, I believe you will be an awesome teacher … …」。

於是，我辭職的這件事在這個對話之後，正式塵埃落定。